makes my heart still skip a beat

Hello Old Friend.

I need to get better at posting stuff but lately ive been pre occupied with other things lol. I wish i can sit here and tell you that this "thing" ive been so hooked on lately was work or school (that is around the corner and i need to still schedule my classes...) but its not. In all honesty it has been Nicole. Since she has came back from her trip from ive been devoting more time to her then before. I call her more often, talk to her longer, see her more during the week. I mean ive always loved this girl to death but when she was in line to get on her flight to Seattle for 2 weeks I really didnt want her to go. I actually went back to her like 3 or 4 times and said many goodbyes because I wanted every second I could with her. While she was gone it actually was very quiet here in Naples. I didnt have anyone to tell me and tell me there crazy stories from work, or tell me whats the latest in the Merriam clan, or even have anyone tell me they loved me. My life honestly felt empty. I have actually never had depended on anyone more then her. She honestly has my heart, soul, and body in the palm of her hand. Thats how much i trust her. I know she will read this because she asked me to write another blog and like the good boyfriend i am i was happy to say ok. I actually caught myself daydreaming at work about our future. Where we will be, what we will be doing, how many kids we will have? This November will be 2 years and to be honest... Im ready to make that next step within the next year. She is a blessing ive always prayed for and in all seriousness she is the biggest gift ive ever recieved from god. I think he purposely put her in my life because he saw me on a path that he didnt like. Its funny actually... my mom told me when i was young that she has always prayed for me to have a loyal, good, christian women to help me with life's struggles and here comes on day this young, shy, cute, funny girl in my life that since day one i was attracted too and had a connection with. She still makes my heart skip a beat to this day ;)

did ya miss me!?

IM BACK!!!

okay okay... so A LOT has happened since the last time i blogged. where to begin??? hell, ill just roll with it and see where it takes me. lol

- me and nicole are doing great and things between me and her are kinda surreal to be honest. i have never been this close to anyone in my life. you know all your life you hear that there is someone in this crazy world that just fits with you personally and emotionally, basically a soulmate. well im confident nicole is my soulmate. now im not going all "crazy stairs" and saying that me and her will ride off unto the sunset holding hands while having the most beautiful kids imaginable and living the perfect life. i will say this though... if things keep going the way they have been... ill want to start exploring the options of sparking that dream. just saying... lol

- im not currently living with my best friends from high school and things couldnt be more perfect. i love my friends and would jump in front of a bullet for them lol. i do wish there was some way i could get fez back to naples for good. that kid just brings out the best of me and i enjoy his company.

- my future is a little clouded right now to be honest... since the last time i posted anything i was going to go under the knife and have a tumor removed from my knee. well, all went well when the surgery/recovery was over but as for the navy... not so much. they saw me as a risk after my surgery and dropped me. surprise surprise!!! well i am glad that i now get to get my ducks back align, look at my life, and move on. a couple months ago nicole put a simple idea in my head to go back to school. at first i just laughed and thought that this girl was crazy. little did i know, i was the one that was loco lol. she kept bringing it up over and over like a broken record and finally i said ok. ill give it a try. still not liking the idea i was going back to school because when it came to the books... i never did good. i was afraid of fail. it was only about a week ago, late one night, me and nicole had a heart to heart talk about school over the phone. listening to her go on and on about me doing this and getting my degree i later realized that i DO want this and that i CAN do this. ill never forget the emotion i felt. all my life i was the butt of the joke and now that i have confidence... LOOK OUT WORLD!!! JUSTIN MINERS WILL TAKE NO PRISONERS!!!

- i will keep trying to post stuff more now that everything in the world of Justin Miners is good as gravy.

GOOD NIGHT WORLD!!!