mid term

well here we are folks as i hate to even utter the words football season has reached the mid way point. this makes me a sad and a deprived man lol. i mean i remember yesterday when i called nicole screaming to the top of my lungs cause i didnt shave, was wearing my dolphins jersey and wore my lucky hat and most importantly it was the start of my favorites time of the year... football season. 

if you guys know me you know im a dolphins fan by heart and lately ive been reading all on espn and foxsports (my two favorite websites to anything sports related =]) and i was reading at all the mid season report cards on all these teams. so here it goes my mid season report card on my dolphins!!! its simple ill break it all down by passing, rushing, defense, and then finally a overall grade. 

passing- where can i start about chad pennington at qb!? i mean dolphins fans have been suffering year after year after year with starting qb's. since dan marino himself retired we have named a new starter every year. the dolphins craved a constant qb for years and we finally got it this year. he leads the nfl in accuracy by completing near 80% of his passes and that makes up dearly since he has a water gun arm. enough about the qb though... where there is good there is the bad. the receiving core we have as of now shows a lot of potential but is way inexperienced. (figures since the average age of the whole dolphins team is 28.7 years old, youngest in the nfl) so in the future we show promise. as of now though we lack at big plays and inconsistent at times to just catch the ball. granted we are young and have to get used to the speed of the game we need atleast on veteran to teach these young guns how to play in the nfl.

GRADE- B

running- the wildcat offense has turned heads and raised eyebrows as the dolphins have executed this to a perfection. best thing about this offense is defenses spend there time learning how to stop this particular offense, since it is brand new to the league, that they forget how to stop the the most basic forms of offense. ronnie brown has been a blessing for us. easily our best player he deserves every bit of the credit for us being in the shape we are and the wins we have. ricky williams an old friend we either love or hate has backed up ronnie and coming into this season with both of them running the ball we thought they would for sure rack up yards as a one-two punch. not much so far... when one does well the other one doesnt. so far not what i expected... 

GRADE- B-

defense- joey porter is a man on a mission. he leads the league in sacks and he does it with a passion and a love for the game. you cant help but to love a player with that attitude. the linebackers and defensive line have been as solid as a rock. holding opposing offenses to little rushing yards and making them and forcing them to throw the ball. that is where i will mention our secondary. extremely inconsistent. i mean we look like on some games a bunch of pro bowl guys back there and in some we look like a fucking pop warner team. alot of potential and all they need is just some experience.

GRADE- A-

overall- who would have thought that a team, and i still cringe to say had only one win last year, would be fighting as of now for a playoff spot and not only a playoff spot but division win. i mean that is insane!!! we are as of now 1 game back to tying for the division with still half a season to go. now the end of that makes me happy cause as the season goes this team gets better. i think in my heart we will go to the playoffs but not as a division leader but instead as a wildcard. tony sporano and bill parcells have there finger prints all over this team. in a few seasons we will be fighting for superbowl contention. mark my words.

GRADE- A

for sure

taking it slow is something im enjoying ever minute off. simply because im not missing out on any details to talk about or laugh about in the future =]

why is patience a virtue?

Patience is a virtue because it makes us better people. The definition of the word is to tolerate delay. This implies self control and forebearance as opposed to wanting what we want when we want it. How many times have we jumped the gun and found out it it would have been better to tolerate delay or had self control? What did we miss out on? Did we hurt someone because of lack of patience? Did our lives just change completely just because we couldn't control ourselves? Patience is not only a virtue but a necessity for a happy exisitience.

-That is something i found and by god it is right. This is something im proud of in the long run. It may hurt now a little but because i have patience there is no question in my mind all will work out. You will be happier including me. So I will sit back... laugh at your jokes, gaze into them big blue eyes, get lost in that smile, and exercise something im damn good at. Patience.

no more.

im not being passive anymore about it. if i want it then im going to take it and everybody including you better be ready for it. 

it sure as hell didnt disappoint me.

wow, thats all i can say. yesterday had the combination of exciting, thoughtful, inspiring, and unforgettable. i kept thinking to myself as i was driving home last night if i would ever have a day that was as unbelievable as the one yesterday and i answered that with a yes. when i was in busch gardens, the ride up and from there, sonic's, driving to my sister's party and back, and hanging out with family and friends there was something that is never going to escape my memory for as old as i get. i mean the memories may get faded and details may be forgotten but the feelings i felt and the extreme high i was experiencing i will never loose. the day was simply put... amazing. here is why...

- busch gardens in whole was awesome. i mean nicole, the rides, the weather, people, carnival games, i mean i can go on and on. seeing nicole on a rollercoaster made me smile from ear to ear. she has been through a lot and to see her smile and watch her laughing the whole time was nice to see. she worked hard to be able to get to ride something that i have always been able to do and yesterday she leaves the park with the title as the "happiest girl in the world." she deserves every bit of it.

- the rides up there and back were fun. i thought they would be boring and pointless but i enjoyed it. ipods to stories to cherry limeades made this part of the day just as great as all the other stuff. 

- the halloween party... where do i start. i mean from my drunk ass sister having a good time dancing and partying, my mom getting low dancing (that will haunt my dreams forever and ever) me and nicole dancing slowly as i held her as close as i could or the hammock where we talked about life. the few hours there i felt absolutely 100% comfortable. when we were laying down nothing was held back as we talked. i had a secret that was bothering me for god knows how long and im extremely relieved that she took it so well. she actually looked at it as a good thing and i can see why. she also told me somethings too that made me feel good. i think me personally she is making strides and she knows what im talking about and soon will wake up and realize that she is over it. i told her i was never any more comfortable with anyone as i was that night and i hope she realizes that cause it may not take alot for me to like someone but it takes alot for me to feel 100% like myself and not worry about what the other person is thinking.

its a shame that all good things must come to a end but with how i felt yesterday i made a promise to myself that i will continue to make great memories like yesterday.  

im sorry... what did you say???

ITS THE WEEKENDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD BABY!!!!!

ohh ok. i got cha.

like a kid in the candy store!!!

im getting pumped for this weekend!!! actually the title of this blog should be "like a kid in the candy store with a million dollar shopping spree to toys r us" yeah thats it.

friday i open the store... sucks i know. but i got friday night off and me, shawn, maybe gil, and whoever are going to see saw 5!!! woooo blood, screaming, gore, oh my!!! lol

saturday oh glorious saturday!!! BUSCH GARDENS with nicole. she and i talked about it and we are going to ride till we puke. its already set in stone people so back off!!! lol

sunday- relaxing. watching my dolphins on the tube since i havent watch them play a game in weeks =]!!! 

(i dont know what is with all the exclamation points and stupid analogies in this blog but what i don know is this weekend needs to get here soon.)

Peace.

this was awesome

i was on the ground crying because of this commercial!!! ive watched it like 20 times lol.

just forgetting about it...

last night i had a horrible dream. i woke up from it with me yelling and my arms just swinging at mid air like i was fighting someone... it wasn't any good.

i had a dream that while i was gone into the service i never came back... it never showed how i died thank god but what got me so freaked out was the news getting to my family and friends. it seemed so real that i thought for awhile i wasn't dreaming and that this was reality. i remember a guy in uniform and a preacher clutching onto a bible walking up to my parents house and my mom falling onto her knees and my dad angrily punching a wall with tears in his eyes. as soon as i saw that i woke up and i would try to go back to sleep but it would come up again... i hated it and i felt guilty all over. 

so how to react to something like this??? i mean when someone has a dream like this then you cant help to think that this is a sign from god saying not to go into the military but i still feel it's what is right for me. i mean im sure a lot of people before they go off and join have dreams like this or nervous about something close to this because lets face it... you are putting your life on the line for your country. so im going to just forget about it and not worry about it. i got a lot of good things coming up. busch gardens with my moonshine, my cousin's wedding, football game with my dad, and going to orlando to see alyssa. im not going to let something like this ruin my outlook on life. not one bit.

thank you to my friends and family that have helped me out through all of these decisions and problems i have faced =]

one more thing before i go to sleep...

ive been saving money for a new gaming system and ive been thinking about using it in another way... i feel as if i did this a lot would be better including me =]

whats gets my blood goin.

i have a playlist when i work out and play basketball and damn does it make me put me on my game face like no other and focus. it gets the blood going and i get hyped like no other!!!

(in no specific order)

faint- linkin park

down with the sickness- disturbed

lose yourself- eminem 

bodies-  drowning pool

the pretender- foo fighters

remember the name- fort minor

numb/encore- jay z & linkin park

let it rock- kevin rudolf & lil wayne

bleed it out- linkin park

act a fool- ludacris 

number one- nelly

here comes the boom- nelly

crazy train- ozzy osbourne 

push it- rick ross

give it all- rise against 

wild thing- tone loc

put on- young jeezy

and a lot more but the ones i listed are my favorites...

reason why im writing this is because i was asked today when i was working out by some girl what all i listen too when i work out and i didnt know how to answer it because i never thought of it. i will next time you can bet your ass lol.

right now

it is perfect outside.

im going for a run!!!

just a thought...

it is a crime to make any man work on a sunday when football is on. 

so since i wont be able to watch the game ill just have to see the game highlights when i get home :(

GO DOLPHINS!!!

the nfl has me pissed off again... but a must watch video lol

you know when i watched this video i felt two things... 

1.) the nfl is nothing like the old days. instead of people getting hit for catching a ball (which is suppose to happen!!!) the nfl fines every single guy for hitting a player to hard. ARE YOU FUCKING KIDDING ME!? the nfl has turned this sport i love into a pansy game. plain and simple. they do it not because they care about the players but instead they care about there trademark logo. i guess to them big hits make there sport look bad. they are taking away one of the biggest things that made this sport so famous. its ridiculous. its videos like this where i wish i was watching football in the 70's, 80's, and 90's.

2.) after watching this video my god i want to nail some poor soul catching a football. hahaha

ahh boo!!!

i dont want to go in for work today but i need too lol

shawn called me awhile ago and asked if i wanted to play golf with him and gil... damn it!!!

oh well i guess that is a part of growing up. some days you get to go out and play and then on most days you work... unless you call out sick ;)

so you heard it... work, is what ill be doing today ladies and gents and im going to see alyssa later tonight since its been awhile since i have. 

oh by the way... i literally forgot EVERYTHING we talked about last night nicole. i know we set up for next saturday to go to busch gardens but thats it haha. so dont shoot me if you say something and then say "oh we talked about it last night" lol (i know you wouldn't but its just a heads up) i guess talking to someone for midnight to 4:30 can do that lol =]

Peace out my peeps!!!

halloween costume

one 2.99 big wooden cross necklace.

one 29.99 white rope.

one 19.99 obama mask.

dressing up as the liberal's savior. 

priceless. hahaha

where do i start!?

1.) i got alyssa coming down for the weekend today.

2.) tonight is a crucial florida state game that must be watched.

3.) tonight too the tampa bay rays can clinch a spot in the world series with a win over the red sox.

4.) im about to walk out the door with some friends to find me a damn costume for my sister's halloween party. i have no idea what i want to be but that the whole fun of it. lol

lots to do and see but so little time =]

Peace.

bravo!!!

guys i hate to admit it but i think im in love without even meeting this girl. hahaha.

naw she plays one of my favorite oldies song (all my loving- the beatles) but not just sing it... she pulls out all the stops and plays a ukulele!!! like i said im in love. it also helps too that she has gorgeous eyes.

people of earth

i woke up today and for some reason i felt rejuvenated???

like something huge was lifted off my shoulders. i dont know what it could be but it felt good. i woke up ate a breakfast (which if you know me that never happens, i hate eating when i get up) and now im just hanging around the house until i go to work. 

nothing more to really say.

Peace.

oh my god!!! hahaha

funny ass shit!!!

i got the itch.

the itch to write. so im sitting here now listening to music and write about whatever is on my mind. 

i thought it was impossible but i guess im wrong. me justin jay miners is excited about a WEDDING lol. i mean granted i am the best man in my cousin's wedding but its exciting too because im leaving on a thursday to singer island near west palm and wont be back till sunday with my dad. i have rehearsal on thursday and friday is the wedding. im nervous about my toast and speech at the dinner after but i made up my mind that im going to wing it. it will be better i know because ill be in the spur of the moment. after that its open bar and i have a hotel to stay in!!! me and my dad and cousin drink all the time but we are going to party like there is no tomorrow when they open them bars lol. saturday when everyone is heading back home me and dad will take the drive to miami and find a hotel to stay in because on sunday i have two tickets to the dolphins game. i got two words about that. PRAISE GOD!!! lol

have you ever noticed how some music can just make you cry, scream with enjoyment or just share with a stranger. its kinda crazy how something can do that lol. i mean we all have different tastes like me, i enjoy beachy acoustic relaxing music, country, rock, OLDIES, and rap. i mean i have a lot of likes but also a lot of dislikes. i cant stand screamo, emo, etc. oh well. there is the types of music too that you only listen too just to remind you and make you think about someone. i wont lie thanks to nicole i listen to jon mclaughlin but not because of the music. its just the fact that while he is singing all i think about is her. 

ive been looking for a new car recently and i have found what i want. i want a dodge caliber, black, fully loaded, 6 cil., and black rims. i saw this today out on the roads and i wont lie. i almost busted a load lol. the bitch was nice!!! best thing is its not much to get these things fully loaded and for the price range in the low teens. also the rims will be a pretty penny but worth it. 

for some reason ive been thinking about an old friend of mine. i mean just remember the old memories and laughing at them. it sucks that it wont never be the same but what can i do. i had to stand up for myself... i do apologize for all the drama i caused and believe me it was a lot. i care a lot about her still and would jump to save her if she called me without thinking twice. i mean i do that with all my friends just because im just that kinda guy i guess. 

ive been thinking a lot too of some other things. mainly me and nicole. i know she will read this and i hope she does. i care more about you then i have ever with any girl. i wont lie to you i didnt at first when we started talking in the summer but now that i know you as a person there is no shaking you off. i tried, my god i tried. im not mad about how things turned out, i tried that too to be mad but i couldnt. i guess you can say im frustrated because i felt im the person you are looking for but because of other things that are blinding your sight and your feelings it wont happen. you know that im just a phone call away if anything ever happens, wether its just to chat or you want me to shoot the shit out of some dude bothering you. when we hang out my god there is nothing more then i want to do then hold you like i used do and watch you fall asleep in my arms like you have done countless times. im just rambling on and on about something that wont change... it sucks.

there you go guys just random stuff that is on my mind or felt like talking about. more to come soon. 

wooo!!!

ALYSSA IS COMING TO TOWN!!!

i miss that girl like crazy lol

not a peachy day

but a great night last night.

chilled with shawn and steven over at ave maria lifting weights and then saw nicole last night as we drove aimlessly around naples with country or rap blaring out of my car. 

today though im sick... i feel terrible.

when the time comes

i want to sit down face to face and have a long ass talk with you.

i need to get shit off my chest and i want you to tell me everything.

until then though ill wait...

well...

i was bored and looking at all of my recent blogs and although my feelings still havent even begun to change i need to start doing something about my attitude towards everyone else. these last few days i havent laughed or smiled at all. it was like i was just a walking zombie. it sucked and if any of you knew me that is DEFINITELY not me because im always smiling. 

so what to do now i keep asking myself??? not much i can do. i mean nothing is going to change. i wish with all my heart they would but i know its not. so again i ask what should a guy like me do??? first off im off saturday and i plan to go hang out with friends. to atleast get my mind off this subject. i have been working everyday since the incident that night and i would go to work come home and think about it. yeah i would exercise and play basketball to ease my thinking some but it wouldnt help when i got home and after i showered. so maybe that is why i have been like i am. 

 

i dont want to loose my feelings for her. not one bit. i do want to show her and everyone else that im a hell of a lot tougher then what i look. so hear goes nothing...

enough said.

i dream about tomorrow a thousand times a day.

though i beg and borrow just to get my way.

and i... i have been waiting oh so long.

i owe you little missy.

the way you shake your thing.

you got me spun around inside. 

i want you to wear my ring.

and i... i want you to wear my ring.

girl i want to love you like you have never been loved before.

i want to love you right then the way i did before.

and i... i dont want to see you cry like you did that night.

i dont know how it happened how they got there hooks in you

i didnt know the darkness would keep you light from shining through

but it has... now im a broken man.

hospitals and diagrams its a godless world you know.

we all know though that god is watching you down below.

cause i prayed for you... my rose.

dear god!?

what is going on with me!?

im yelling at my friends and looking to start shit like all that has happened is there fault.

so here it is...

when shit was going perfect life threw another curve ball at me. i mean these past weeks have been shitty for me. i miss some close friends of mine and her. i dont know what to do about it in all honesty... usually i have people come to me for advice but for once in my life i have to find someone to seek that oh so true advice i need. also another thing is that last night was tough on me. do i regret some of the things i said. no way, the good and the bad i meant it. i had to do something wrong though for it to come down the way it did. maybe karma? maybe not meant to be? maybe life was ready to knock me back down to earth. idk??? it sucks though.

for the first time today i didnt smile at all... its not like me.

its over.

i do all i can do.

i try to say all the right things.

i mean what am i doing wrong!?

is it me!?

i cant do this anymore. this is truly worst then any of them and i cant do it anymore. after tonight i dont know what to do.

im so damn mad right now but what can i do!? how in the hell can he have her heart when i tried so hard to make her happy and laugh. my god im in tears just writing this. this is my last straw after tonight no more mr nice guy for any girl in the future.

it is true...

nice guys do and always finish last.

i hate being last.

lots of thinking tonight.

Hush little baby don't say a word. 

I like to give you everything you deserve.

I'll give you my heart and I'll give you all my soul.

You can have all my money.

If you like you can have complete control.

If I can't have you life would be hard to live.

Because I have so much for me to give.

its been awhile and alot has happened.

oh man. well first off lets start with tuesday which was awesome. as you know by my last post it was the day of the oar concert in st. pete. and it was incredible!!! i mean the place was rocking and we were so damn close we could spit on them lol. me and shawn didnt get back till about 1:30 but no worries though i mean i had to get up early the next morning to miami to get signed up for the navy but it was worth it.

wednesday was sooooo drawn out. i had to meet up at the recruiters office at 9 in the morning because we were going to leave to miami. ill be damn if we left at fucking 1:30!!! i had to sit there and stare at a wall for 4 and a half hours. lame. FINALLY we get going and all of a sudden my recruiter tells me oh by the way i know we planned to take you test asvab test on thursday afternoon but i changed it to wednesday afternoon instead because of the time. ARE YOU FUCKING KIDDING ME!? i all of a sudden had a panic attack cause i didnt do any last minute studying to refresh my mind. i was planning on doing that wednesday night but apparently that didnt happen lol. no worries though i passed with flying colors and had plenty of kobs to choose from =] 

today my god im so tired. we had a wake up call in our room at 4:30 in the morning to head over to finish our processing for the military. in other words i had to pass the medical part. the whole medical part was crazy long!!! i had to (in order) blood pressure, hearing, vision, physical, weight and height (which sucks because for some reason they want you to strip down to nothing to get it as accurate as possible), blood work, piss test (sucks even more cause to make sure you dont cheat the test a guy watches you fill up you cup lol) and a blow test. all of that took about 5 hours to complete. it sucked. after all was said and done i went down stairs to sign up and couldnt becuase they need to look at my records one more time before they have me sign. i did though get a good idea though atleast of what jobs ill be signing up for... aviation, diver, or law enforcement. i like all three so it was a "bitter sweet" day for me today. im so damn tired right now though... ive got probably a total of 8 hours of sleep the last 3 days and i got another concert tom night!!! what a week!!!