makes my heart still skip a beat

Hello Old Friend.

I need to get better at posting stuff but lately ive been pre occupied with other things lol. I wish i can sit here and tell you that this "thing" ive been so hooked on lately was work or school (that is around the corner and i need to still schedule my classes...) but its not. In all honesty it has been Nicole. Since she has came back from her trip from ive been devoting more time to her then before. I call her more often, talk to her longer, see her more during the week. I mean ive always loved this girl to death but when she was in line to get on her flight to Seattle for 2 weeks I really didnt want her to go. I actually went back to her like 3 or 4 times and said many goodbyes because I wanted every second I could with her. While she was gone it actually was very quiet here in Naples. I didnt have anyone to tell me and tell me there crazy stories from work, or tell me whats the latest in the Merriam clan, or even have anyone tell me they loved me. My life honestly felt empty. I have actually never had depended on anyone more then her. She honestly has my heart, soul, and body in the palm of her hand. Thats how much i trust her. I know she will read this because she asked me to write another blog and like the good boyfriend i am i was happy to say ok. I actually caught myself daydreaming at work about our future. Where we will be, what we will be doing, how many kids we will have? This November will be 2 years and to be honest... Im ready to make that next step within the next year. She is a blessing ive always prayed for and in all seriousness she is the biggest gift ive ever recieved from god. I think he purposely put her in my life because he saw me on a path that he didnt like. Its funny actually... my mom told me when i was young that she has always prayed for me to have a loyal, good, christian women to help me with life's struggles and here comes on day this young, shy, cute, funny girl in my life that since day one i was attracted too and had a connection with. She still makes my heart skip a beat to this day ;)

did ya miss me!?

IM BACK!!!

okay okay... so A LOT has happened since the last time i blogged. where to begin??? hell, ill just roll with it and see where it takes me. lol

- me and nicole are doing great and things between me and her are kinda surreal to be honest. i have never been this close to anyone in my life. you know all your life you hear that there is someone in this crazy world that just fits with you personally and emotionally, basically a soulmate. well im confident nicole is my soulmate. now im not going all "crazy stairs" and saying that me and her will ride off unto the sunset holding hands while having the most beautiful kids imaginable and living the perfect life. i will say this though... if things keep going the way they have been... ill want to start exploring the options of sparking that dream. just saying... lol

- im not currently living with my best friends from high school and things couldnt be more perfect. i love my friends and would jump in front of a bullet for them lol. i do wish there was some way i could get fez back to naples for good. that kid just brings out the best of me and i enjoy his company.

- my future is a little clouded right now to be honest... since the last time i posted anything i was going to go under the knife and have a tumor removed from my knee. well, all went well when the surgery/recovery was over but as for the navy... not so much. they saw me as a risk after my surgery and dropped me. surprise surprise!!! well i am glad that i now get to get my ducks back align, look at my life, and move on. a couple months ago nicole put a simple idea in my head to go back to school. at first i just laughed and thought that this girl was crazy. little did i know, i was the one that was loco lol. she kept bringing it up over and over like a broken record and finally i said ok. ill give it a try. still not liking the idea i was going back to school because when it came to the books... i never did good. i was afraid of fail. it was only about a week ago, late one night, me and nicole had a heart to heart talk about school over the phone. listening to her go on and on about me doing this and getting my degree i later realized that i DO want this and that i CAN do this. ill never forget the emotion i felt. all my life i was the butt of the joke and now that i have confidence... LOOK OUT WORLD!!! JUSTIN MINERS WILL TAKE NO PRISONERS!!!

- i will keep trying to post stuff more now that everything in the world of Justin Miners is good as gravy.

GOOD NIGHT WORLD!!!

wow. im speechless...

this video had me thinking how something as simple as music can move mountains. i mean it crazy how all problems cease to exist when you listen to that song that makes you want to sing along, that song that reminds you of a old good memory, or that song that well... hell make you shake your ass and go crazy. what people fail to realize is that music in general can heal just about most problems and bring people all around the world closer together. this is an example of just that... enjoy.

this makes me want to sing along with them.

i love sporting events. i mean the atmosphere, fans, rivals, laughter, smiles, and just plain fun. this is definition of that to a tee. its a boston red sox game and the fans are singing to sweet caroline by neil diamond. enjoy, cause i sure did =]

the outcome...

it is a bone tumor that must be removed. i will have surgery on the 26th and be out of work and in crutches for about a month at the most. soon therapy to follow. wish me luck.

problems...

my knee today has been giving me fits. i hope and pray for he best tomorrow. i want to get this taken care of now.

forsaken but not forgotten.

ahh good ol blog that i have started last summer. im sorry i forgot about you. im sorry that i haven't been telling you what is going on in the world that is Justin Miners. ill try to get better. no, wait... scratch that. i WILL get better. starting now...

WHERE TO START!? well the fact that my life just did an 180 and now im not going to the navy is a start. i was supposed to leave in october but now thats not going to happen. reason why? well, awhile back i was working out with the navy and my left knee was giving me a fit. i didn't think much of it so i let it be, toughed it out, and forgot about it. well after that it kept reoccurring, each time worse then before. it was so bad that i put my pride aside and had to go have it checked out. i did last tuesday. so im sitting in the doc's office looking at my own x-rays and being nosey lol and he came in with those words that i wont forget... "its not good." he later explained that it was a bone tumor. now incase you didn't know about my past medical history, i used to have testicular cancer. everything is fine now, thank god, but that was the first thing i thought when he said that it was a bone tumor was a form of cancer, it isn't. so now i have to go through surgery to remove this tumor and then after that ill be in a brace for about 4 months. "woooo hoooo!!!" lol. the navy has already my papers to let me start my new life in the free world. 

so now what??? i mean what is a kid to do when he had his whole life planned out and now has to think about a new plan. i plan on starting where my heart truly lies. culinary school. i know, i know, what happened to being a cop? well that fact is i do like law and it would be a very interesting job but its just not what im happy with. i mean i now live on my own and i find myself cooking for me all the time since i need to save all the money i can get lol. i even cook a intimate dinner for me and my babe all the time and thats when i realized something last time. when i see someone enjoy something i made i get a no better high. i mean it literally puts me on cloud nine lol. so im going to pursue a career in something i love. even if i can make more money easily running my sisters company, or being a cop, my heart just wouldn't be in it. so to make this happen i need to do some rearranging lol. after my surgery im moving back to naples THANK YOU JESUS!!! god i miss my friends in naples. i miss naples period. so im moving back there and going to start school at the lorenzo walker institute. there ill take culinary classes to start my life and start to sit back relax a bit. in all honesty too... i cant wait!!! =]

after this surgery and all is going to be taken care of is when i put my life into drive now. no more excuses. look forward to it =]

OAR is coming soon to florida again!!!

woooooooooooooooooooooooo!!!!!!!!!!!!!

aug. 26th in tampa

aug. 27th in orlando

aug. 28th in st. augestine

aug. 29th in pampano beach

oh god i cant wait.

new place!!!

ill hurry up and blog before i have to go to work.

hopefully by tomorrow ill be all moved and settled into my new place. im going to start my packing tonight and all day tomorrow ill be moving in. nicole and jared are going to be helping me throughout the day and im glad because im going to need to have all the extra hands i can get. today i also went to target and bought over a hundred bucks of stuff like towels, sheets and blankets, pillows, a bathroom rug. i mean you name it i got it. i also got the " a ok" to move my grandma's recliner in my room. im thrilled about that cause that chair sits really good. 

thats all for now. ill update you guys tomorrow and let you know how it turned out =]

Peace.

sunburnt but happy.

today was something that ive been craving for awhile. i dont get to do this much but i enjoy every moment of it. 

fez is down for spring break from west point. as long as ive known shawn and all my other friends i dont get along better then with anyone else. i mean we literally just sat back on the beach today as we had some "eye candy" walk in front of us and bullshited about everything. i mean mostly sex stories or fantasies and would i do this chick or how many beers would it take to sleep with her... so i guess you call that "guy talk" lol. he may not know it but out of all my friends he has impacted me the most with his "go with the flow" attitude to everything, that i have later adopted into my own style and outlook on life. i like it.

so like the subject i am sunburnt but happy and cant wait for the next adventure. 4 wheeling with my babe on saturday =]

live high, live mighty, live righteously, and take it easy. 

random thoughts...

while i sit here and cringe at the sound of a vacuum (cause i hate that noise.) i begin to think of all the stuff that has been going on in my life as of recent. also too all the things that has already passed in my life. here are some few thoughts...

- im FINALLY getting that place of my own. by the 1st of april ill be moved and settle in to an apartment here in estero. its a 2 bed 2 bath, nothing spectacular, but what is so great about this is that it will finally give me the freedom to do whatever the hell i want to. my roommate will be my cousin so im glad to its with someone i at least know too. he needs a roommate till he graduates in the fall and i so happen to leave in the fall so why not is what i said? so good news in that part.

- now ive had my crushes in the past but it was just yesterday when i saw a good friend of mine alyssa. is when i realized that every old flame of mine ill just look at them the same way... an old flame. i mean i use to be ga ga over this girl (and about every other one) and would always picture myself dating and what not. yesterday though and throughout this relationship i only saw her as a friend and that made me smile cause that will only make our friendship that much better.

- fez is coming into town today. i miss my amigo and all the shit we got ourselves into. he most of the time bailed me out and i will still wait for that time to come when he needs my help cause lets face it... with the way he is, he is either lucky or smart to not get caught up in any shit. apparently i dont have neither lol.

- it was on the fifth that it was mine and nicole's 4 month and while it seems like longer then that all i do know is that i never have had a dull moment. i couldnt have asked for someone better for me. i mean she is almost like me in every way and she shares the same beliefs as me. so of course im diggin her. we have talked it out and although it will be tough we are going to stick out the navy and remain together cause we both dont want to lose each other. im glad =)

- the sound of the vacuum is driving me insane!!! im going to leave now with this... if there is something that is pissing you off, drown out the sound with espn's sportscenter.

Peace.

car of my dreams...

i like this song alot by keith urban and after seing this video it only fuels the liking of this son. it centers around a gorgeous black, 69 mustang. most of the video im not even focusing on the couples in it or keith even singing... what has my attention is that damn car. god what i would do for one.

damn this is funny!!!

i love the soup. just because of skits like these lol

field trip!!!

got the good news today and ordered the tickets :)

me and nicole are going to universal for the whole day and wont be back till the sun comes up. lol

two 2 park tickets.

two 2 park speedpasses.

1 fucking awesome day!!!

god i just hope february 15th comes quick!!!

the seven deadly sins

WRATH​
1. Who did you last get angry​ with?​ my mom

2. What is your weapo​n of choic​e?​ probably a gun lol

3. Would​ you hit a membe​r of the oppos​ite sex? never.

4. How about​ the same sex? absolutely

5. Who was the last perso​n who got reall​y angry​ at you? idk?

6. What is your pet peeve​?​ when you think you are better then someone else

7. Do you keep grudg​es,​ or can you let them go easil​y?​ i used to keep them but have learned to just let them go.


SLOTH​
1. What is one thing​ you'​re suppo​se to do daily​ that you haven​'​t?​ work out

2. What is the lates​t you'​ve ever woken​ up? 2 o clock lol

3. Name a perso​n you'​ve been meani​ng to conta​ct,​ but haven​'​t?​ no one in particular 

4. What is the last lame excus​e that you made?​ i called off for a sick day a couple of days ago lol

5. Have you ever watch​ed an infom​ercia​l all the way throu​gh?​ hell no. i hate them things.

6. How many times​ did you hit the snooz​e butto​n on your alarm​ clock​ this morni​ng?​ never. im pretty good about getting up after it goes off (go figure) lol


GLUTT​ONY 
1. What is your overp​riced​ yuppi​e bever​age of choic​e?​ i like jack and coke

2. Are you a meat eater​?​ CAN I GET A AMEN!!!

3. What is the great​est amoun​t of alcoh​ol you'​ve had in one sitti​ng/​outin​g/​event​?​ oh dear god... 

4. Are you comfo​rtabl​e with your drink​ing and eatin​g habit​s?​ i should eat better but dont and i drink on a blue moon

6. Do you enjoy​ candy​ and sweet​s?​ oh god how i have a sweet tooth

7. Which​ do you prefe​r:​ sweet​s,​ salty​ foods​ or spicy​ foods​?​ all of the above
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8. Have you ever looke​d at a small​ house​ pet or child​ and thoug​ht,​ "​lunch​"​?​ hahahahahaha!!!!!!


GREED​ 
1. How many credi​t cards​ do you own? one

2. If you had a milli​on dolla​rs,​ what would​ you do with it? i would want to save it but in the long run i would probably spend the piss out of it

3. Would​ you rathe​r be rich or famou​s?​ rich

4. Would​ you accep​t a borin​g job if it meant​ that you would​ make megab​ucks?​ hell to the yes


PRIDE​ 
1. What'​s one thing​ that you have done that you'​re most proud​ of? not applying myself like i should have in school

2. What'​s one thing​ you have done that your paren​ts are most proud​ of? signing up for the navy

3. What thing​ would​ you like to accom​plish​ late in your life?​ a family

4. Do you get annoy​ed by comin​g in secon​d place​?​ yeah lol

5. Have you ever enter​ed a conte​st of skill​,​ knowi​ng you were of much highe​r skill​ than all the other​ compe​titor​s?​ haha yeah
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6. Have you ever cheat​ed to get a bette​r score​?​ of course.

7. What did you do today​ that you'​re proud​ of? i kicked some kids ass in madden on 360 lol


LUST 
1. How many peopl​e have you seen naked​ (not count​ing movie​s,​ famil​y,​ 
strip​pers,​ locke​r rooms​)​?​ two

2. How many peopl​e have seen you naked​ (not count​ing physi​cians​,​ docto​rs,​ famil​y,​ locke​r rooms​,​ or when you were a young​ child​)​?​ two

3. Have you ever caugh​t yours​elf stari​ng at the chest​/​crotc​h of a perso​n of your chose​n sex durin​g a norma​l conve​rsati​on?​ hahaha its so hard not too!!! lol

4. What is your favor​ite body part of a perso​n of your gende​r choic​e?​ im going to go classy on this one because this is the truth... the eyes.

5. Have you ever had sexua​l encou​nters​ (​inclu​ding kissi​ng/​makin​g out) with 
multi​ple perso​ns?​ no lol

6. Have you ever been propo​sitio​ned by a prost​itute​?​ nope lol


ENVY 
1. What item of your frien​ds would​ you most want to have for your own? hmm??? smarts

2. Who would​ you want to go on "​Tradi​ng Space​s"​ with?​ i dont know what that is?

3. If you could​ be anyon​e who exist​ed in the world​,​ who would​ you be? some jo shmo in australia... i just want to live at that place i dont care where lol

4. Have you ever been cheat​ed on? no

5. Have you ever wishe​d you had a physi​cal featu​re diffe​rent from your own? yeah i wish i wasnt so skinny

6. What inbor​n trait​ do you see in other​s that you wish you had for yours​elf?​ taller

WHAT DEADL​Y SIN.​.​.​

1. Do you do the least​ often​?​ envy

2. Is your favor​ite to act on? lust ;)